*XUAN PARADISE

2006-12-05T23:24:00.000-08:00

is it the end of our friendship?

2006-11-25T14:52:00.000-08:00

i've bought my prom dress and shoes!

juz bought it ytd...

but now the more i look at my dress the more i regret buying it!

wat done is done..haix...SIAN AR!

prom really a trouble!

dunno where's my heart wanna go...here or there???

WHERE?????

dunno whether to be glad or sad?

glad; finally a gathering?

sad; know that i hav been left aside?

or shld i put it in this way,

gain; know my stand in there?

lost; the friendship...?

maybe i shouldn't be present...in this way i may be feeling better

shld i continue...but too many waters are given..

shld i? juz give up? and walk the other way?

but i really can't bear...really..

.........

2006-11-22T13:10:00.000-08:00

ITS PARTY TIME!!!

hahas..on monday, juz played mahjiong wif the siaos, one was absent.

celebrating the end of O's!

and our always exggerating erjie& our 'beloved' dajie bought some snacks and 'WINE'!

'wine' huh, it was actually juz a cranberries+grapes sparkling juice.

dotss eh..hahas. too bad we are underage for alcohol.

but anyway, having a fake wine is not a bad thing.=)

and after the cheers,....the game START!

i enjoy that day!

not only becuz of mahjiong, i juz enjoy the gathering!

since the last month, i've not been enjoying and i miss the feeling of gathering..

i really miss the times together...

hope this holiday will change everything back to normal.

hope so...

ANOTHER PARTY!!!

i'm looking forward to tomorrow...

NETBALL FIRE!!!

hahas...so long nv play netball le, since the last pe lesson..

i can't wait to play!

i shall ENJOY myself tml!

PARTY TIME!!

2006-11-20T22:59:00.000-08:00

Yeah!

O's OVER!!!

OFFICIALLY OVER!!!

and now, its PARTY TIME!

apart frm tt, i'n looking for a job..

need to find a part-time job to earn my holiay allowance if not i cannot survive this holiday...

anyone have any lobang, any job to recommand?

2006-11-12T00:40:00.000-08:00

I'm glad O's is over (althought theres one more paper left)

and soon prom nite coming...

i should be happy izzn't it?

but why am i not?

i'm so troubled...

i'm so frustrated...

i'm so LOST!

what am i suppose to do?

what am i going to do?

how? how? how?

2006-11-05T05:17:00.000-08:00

tml O's le!

OH MY!

i'm so nervous and scared...

questions like: wat if i fail? wat if i can't get into poly? keep on reflect on my mind!

i really scared tt i will fail O's sia...

my science till now i still haven get a hand on it..

my geo i still haven study yet..

and eng is the impt one..

goshh!

lets pray tt papers will be easy...

2006-11-02T14:55:00.000-08:00

yesterday was my O's art paper and i was happy tt its over...

BUT...noe wat?!!!

i was unable to complete in time!!!

my background is totally white!

gosh man!...

wat make it worse is tt my background HAV MEANING!!..

and leaving it blank cause it to hav NO MEANING AT ALL!!!!

urghhh!!! so SHIT man!!!

and how much will i get for handing in an incomplete art piece?!

E8?! D7?! or merely pass?!

after spending so many time on it and this is wat i get?

oh my! wat the helll!!!!!!! i think i gonna die!

TOTALLY SUX!!!

2006-10-24T23:38:00.000-07:00

time files...

one more week and O's gonna start!!!

so fast man..

haven even started study!!! urghh!

next week need to hand in art le..

AHHH!! juz started doing only..

how i wish i can stop the time!

STUDY HARD EVERYONE!!! =)

2006-10-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

I had made my decision

i decided to give up..

no more pursuing no more crying no more sadness

it shall remain as it is..

nthing shall be done..

sad to say this...

2006-10-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

CAN ANYONE HELP ME PLSS!!!

i going to breakdown soon...

2006-10-19T09:25:00.000-07:00

yeah! i'm back!

after one month++ of time, my comp FINALLY had been completely repaired!

i'm glad! =)

2006-08-18T20:00:00.000-07:00

it's has been raining recently...

sometimes thunder sometimes drizzling

dunno wats wrong wif the weather...

i hate it when it rains

it affect my sleeping..

can't fall asleep..

can't sleep well..

arghhh...

i'mhatingit

2006-08-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i last online..

time files...and exam gonna starts in 2 weeks time!..haix..

so tired recently..

tired of school...

tired of home...

tired of life...

tired of everything......

am i suffering from depression???

i've been wondering for a long time...

2006-08-11T13:08:00.000-07:00

a lesson learned

*think twice before posting entries

2006-08-04T20:30:00.000-07:00

pondering...

shld i??? or shld not???

wat a tough decision..

if i say it,

will things get worser?

or will it get better?

i reallly can't stand it anymore..

but wat if things get worser when i say out?

wouldn't i be feeling worser den now?

and it might affect them too...

urghhss...

think! think! think!

brain only bring troubles to human!!!

i'mHATINGbrain!

no wonder i'm having headache recently...

all because of BRAIN!!!

2006-08-04T20:00:00.000-07:00

arghhs...my head gonna crack soon!!!

having headache this few days..

yesterday was a terrible one..i can't even sit up properly..

my head juz feel so giddy and pain when i was sitting up..

today was not spared

had a headache in this afternoon

urghh..it was juz so sickening!

and whenever i have a headache i will smack my head..

soon i'm gonna be a retarded..

STUPID HEAD!!!

2006-08-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

to heal the scar that a friend cause is difficult.

you will nv forget the scar.

maybe it is only a misunderstandings but the scar will alwax be there.

maybe it is juz a small matter but it will alwax reflect on ur mind.

perharps u will forget abt it

but it will take a long time...

waiting...

2006-07-30T17:20:00.000-07:00

The Difference between Friends and Bestfriend
Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.

Best friend: calls your parents dad & mom or tito & tita.

Friend: has never seen you cry.

Best friend: has always has the best shoulder to cry on.

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink.

Best friend: opens the fridge & makes himself at home.

Friend: asks you to write down your number.

Best friend: they ask you for their number.(cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.

Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff.

Friend: only knows a few things about you.

Best friend: could write a biography on your life story.

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.

Best friend: will always go with you.
Friend: will ask where you've been.
Best Friend: will say ! MISS YOU & goes on being your friend.

2006-07-28T19:25:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD LIKE THIS!!!

2006-07-27T19:30:00.000-07:00

OH MY~!

he is juz TOO CUTE!

i'mlovinHIM!

2006-07-26T16:30:00.000-07:00

replying to sometwo

say: i'm alright, really alright. u say until very serious like tt...there's really nthing happen and shld there be anything happen? haha...i'm ok lah. perharp u all treat me to movies or makan makan it will be even better. not bad eh, ok! set! dun say i'm greedy lah, chompchomp will be fine wif me. i dun mind without aircon lah. i juz wanna have crabs, prawns, stingrays, lobsters, bbq chicken, ermm..kaes lah, not too many. tts all. 5 main dishes. it shld be alright wif u guys lah. hahas... so ermm..day and time will decide again lah. But this meal....it is DECIDED!

WAHAHAHAHAHA{evil smile}

*abit lagg ar, reply to date:17 july

2006-07-24T14:00:00.000-07:00

CHECK IT OUT!

romours have been spreading that 2 moons will be seen on Aug. 27:

Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August.

It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye.

This will cultimate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth.

Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am.

It will look like the earth has 2 moons.

The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287.

it does not have a scientific explanations.

it depend on u to believe it or not. =)

2006-07-14T20:30:00.000-07:00

lets updatess..

haix..so tired recently. exhausted. everyday muz stay in school till 5.30 for remedials. the school muz be crazy. and the students soon will be crazy too!

everyday reach home at 5plus 6 plus, reach home aready still cannot rest. still got homeworks waiting. WAH..everyday routine gonna kill me sia!

luckily today is a fri and finally hav time to rest.

haix..stress? i wonder wat is stress and wat it means to me. Am i feeling stress? Is mood swings the symtom of being stress? hmmm..tts a tough question. i'll find out the nxt time.

CAN CRACK BE REMEND?

it seems like the crack will nv be gone.

i try to make it disappear but i can't.

it will always reflect in my mind.

has things change? i think so..

i'mHATINGit

2006-07-07T19:00:00.000-07:00

went to sports day today. wah..it was so hot man. HOT HOT HOT! haha..

this year sports day was juz like a shitt. KNS man.

dun even hav 100m, 200m or 400x100 events. everything oso dun hav.

juz like SHIT man.

den after the sports day, i went to hav lunch wif nei they all.

after tt we went to play netball cum basketball.{playing netball at a basketball court} haha lols.

though only 3 person but it was quite fun. it seems tt i was addicted to netball. ytd play, today play, tml oso intend to play. haha..lols..

wif kelly, wendy, wanting, zhenbing, pohling, geraldine, evina & peien. i'm sure tt will be very fun! =D haha..i'm looking forward for tml!

i'mlovinit

2006-07-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

lonely Eeyore

=)

2006-07-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

updatesss...

YEAH!!!

FRANCE WON!!!

FRANCE 1-0 BRAZIL

Thierry Henry scored the goal.

COOL MAN! tt was so cool..haha

see..pe, i told u France will win. haha..finally my turn to say this sentence. lols

but haix..England lose to Portugal. tt was so disappointed..

Penalty kick shootout

ENGLAND 1-3 PORTUGAL

if beckham was not injured and rooney was not given a red card, england might win sia.

so sad man..england juz do not have the luck in world cup.

And now left only the 4 European in the quarter-finale matches

GERMANY, ITALY, PORTUGAL & FRANCE

GERMANYvsITALY & PORTUGALvsFRANCE

who will win the championship?

i SUPPORT France!

haha..juz wait and see..

today went to kbox wif pe and hong and we were so 'heng' man! the aircon was SPOILT! and it was so hot and abit stuffy. i was like singing in the sauna. {abit exaggerate la} but really loh..it was so hot tt i hav to open the door so many times juz to feel the aircon outside. haha

i dunno how the others people endure the heat cuz only our door was kept on open&close open&close open&close.. haha..lols

But there was one tt we were really heng lah. we left the place at 3.20 like tt. actually is ended at 2.00 but perharps becuz of the spoilty aircon, they extended the time to 2.30. and we automatically extended our time to 3plus..haha lols. but is not tt we dun wan to leave is juz tt nobody comes in to chase us out. tts why we sang until 3plus. haha..

typical singaporeans? nahz..is habits of mind, perseverance. imaging us endure the heat till 3.20. 4hrs of endurance. indeed our perseverance are good. haha..lols.

anyway, i enjoy it!

and a lesson was learnt,

' U can't gain both things at a time'

i'mlovinit

DISAPPOINTED

2006-06-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

I dunno wat makes u think tt i am refering to u but now i'm telling u tt

'NO, I AM NOT REFERING TO U'

And i dunno why u think tt i am throwing temper at u but now i'm telling u tt

'I AM NOT THROWING TEMPER AT U'

I dunno wat makes u think tt i am throwing temper at u but now i'm telling u tt

'U ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON I REPLY TO'

And please, for ur goodness sake, make things clear before u make any decisions.

if u dunno wats going on den dun think tt wat u think is the truth.

now den i noe wat going on...

at first i thought i did something wrong but NOW looking at tt, i dun feel guilty

rather, i am so disappointed.

wat makes u think i am such a person..i dunno wat to say but i am...

TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED

WAT GOING ON WIF MY LIFE!!!

i feel like crying out loud...

nobody noes wat i feel...

i thought i could find my light through friends but i think...

i am wrong

2006-06-21T15:30:00.000-07:00

if dun wan JUZ say it!

STOP finding EXCUSES!!!

a simple NO is not difficult to say

i've had ENOUGH!!!

don't force me to blow up!!!

2006-06-21T15:10:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUPID PIG IDIOT SHIT ASSHOLE

@#$%&%$#@#$%&%$#@#$%&%$#@#$%&

TOTALLY SUCKS!!!

2006-06-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I'M BROKE!!!!!!

OFFICIALLY BROKE!!!!!!

I'm so frustrated!!!

NO MONEY!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH

@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*(@#$%^&*@#$%^&*(@#$%^

2006-06-09T19:10:00.000-07:00

YEAH! 2 weeks of skoolings had finally END!!! YIPEEE!!!

haha..that was so great man! Finally have time to enjoy the holidays and oso have a nice sleep le! no need to wake up early in the morning le..GREAT! lols..

Haix..but dunno why i have mood swing recently...

although there is times that i really enjoy but whenever the fun end, my happy mood will end too.

AHHHHHHHHH!!! can anyone tell me whats wrong with me!???

2006-06-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

YOYOYOYO~MJ.siaos!

SIAO AR!!!

*`DEAN

`NEI

`EPL

`PE

`LX

i'mlovinit =)

2006-06-05T07:10:00.000-07:00

WOW!!!

COOL~! Haha..last friday my both parents go Genting..leaving me,my sis and bro..

so sad..cannot go genting enjoy..BUT..haha..i ask my friends come my house to...DRY SWIMMING!!!

Hahax..tts was so FUN!!! There were hong,gek,nei,dean and meow. So fun man! Too bad tt pe cannot join us..tt was so sad. She was so envious..when she come back i muz 'ci ji' her..hahax.. Long time nv exercise my hand le. Since the last dec holiday, this was the first time exercising my hand.

haha..and now, it seems tt exercising our hand is our daily life. LOLs

And today, we exercise our hand again..haha..it seems like we are addicted to it.. esp. nei. The 'Du Hou'. Haha..she is so addicted to it..DRY SWIMMING is juz like a magic word, she will be alert when she heard these words. lols

I really enjoy the times we spent together..you guys juz RAWKSS!!! & dry swimming RAWKSS TOO!!!

*i'mlovinit

2006-05-26T16:45:00.000-07:00

TILL THE END

All these precious moments

With you by my side

Must be a gift from heaven

That's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you

I'm thankful that I have

Now that I have a love so true

To hold, to keep, to share
*In my heart

I can no longer hold inside

All of the love I used to hide

I'll always be with you until the very end

In this world there in no place I'd rather be

You are my life, my soul, my girl

You through it all I know

That you've come to see that you're the one

till the end
All my friends around me

Say you'd be gone too soon

Baby I'm gonna make them see

We've found our way back home
(Repeat*)
We'll always be till the end

IMPORTANT

2006-05-22T18:30:00.000-07:00

A book may looks beautiful outside but inside, it may be torned.

A apple may look fresh outside but inside, it may be rotten.

DANGER

*NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER

2006-05-21T15:30:00.000-07:00

teenagers nowadays!?

dunno is good? or bad?

haha..lols..=X

more and more couples are seen..wonder is a good thing or a bad thing?? hmm..for those who are in a relationship will think tt it is a good thing ..as for their friends..they will also agree tt it is a good thing becuz we can DISTURB them!!! wahahaha{evil laughters} However, there will always be exceptions..frenz might feel jealousy. Jealous of the guy or the girl? Now tts the problem. Hmmm..that will be a tough time to go..

As for elderly like parents..most of them will not agree to it. they will think tt their child are too young to be in a relationship. some scare tt their child might be deceive. others scare tt their child will get hurt.

But come on parents,

Know ur child well and Believe in ur child, Believe in the Maturity of ur child. TRUST

*my child refers to teenagers not primary sch kids

haha..lols..anyway teenagers who are in relationship, u hav my blessing! =)

BOring Day

2006-05-19T16:30:00.000-07:00

Wheww~...finally get to noe abit on how to use blog..but still not use to it. But i'm sure wif my talent this won't be a prob! hahax..

Haix...today i nv go to sch..so bore at home sia.. Actually intend to go PE hse to watch movie, a movie tt i wanna watch for a veryvery long time!!...but too bad, it was cancelled last min..so saddd =( But nvm, tml i shld be able to watch the show. x) hahax..so excited! lols

Holidays is coming and tts a good thing BUT report books are COMING OSO!!! i'm gonna die this time... i've flung all my subjects {though it's nt the first time} but this year is a impt year man. O's this year, muz really work hard man..i muz psycho myself to study! ITS A MUZ!!!

2006-05-11T16:59:00.000-07:00

A BIGGG fish!
Its really BIG!!!
the biggest fish i've seen with my own eyes.
BIG BIG BIG BIG!!!

2006-05-10T15:40:00.000-07:00

taken in the boat during our journey to GELONG

see how messy our hair is esp. meixi's =P

2006-05-10T13:43:00.000-07:00

beautiful scenery taken at GELONG.
nice nice =)

2006-05-09T04:34:00.000-07:00

YOYOYOZ! testing testing...